Let us go back a little to physics 101, yeah..rewind back time a little. If you faithful and new blog readers of mine still remember the formula F=kx. Yes that formula, where load is placed on a spring, the spring will lengthen or extend to a certain point. haha..i bet you guys will screw me when you see me, what physics lesson in a blog? My point here is this, I'm experiencing that condition in my phase of my life now. As it is, we humans are always striving to do our best and give our best in whatever we do.Well, i'm not sure if it applies to all but its ringing a bell in my own head. But when we do too much and the word i wish to stress here is 'too much', this strive for excellence becomes a burden and a hindrance. When we as an individual stretch ourselves so much until it is beyond our original limit, a scenario or a psychological condition called the 'breaking point' would appear.

I sometimes wonder, at times when someone else is having problems, I go all out to help that someone.But when I have the problem, the equation goes the other way.HELP+SINCERITY doesnt equal to True Friendship.I am so exhausted and deprived of true attention from the people i care. Why? Why would I be a puppet playing the role in other people's lives while they take advantage of me. Look here, I'm not Pinnochio and you guys ain't Gepetto.Get your thoughts straight.For one, when I am having my problems or facing my darkest fears, you guys cut away the strings attached to me and just leave.

Answer me now, why is it that you guys always come to me when you have problems? Is it because I will do whatever it takes to solve and help, or because I am just a puppet in your life for you guys to pull the string and make me walk your way? I don't want be no faker. I would not want to fake my emotions. Whenever you guys have your problems, it comes crashing down on me, but I still smile and then help you guys go the other way around.Why? Why go through all that fuss? This is because I believe(oh sorry), I THOUGHT you guys would do the same when I have my own problems. How stupid of me, karma never comes, retribution will only come.

Believe it or not, I stretch my boundaries for you guys.I can surely say, when I have the problem, you guys would just listen to me and then change the topic. Sincerity is not just a word in the dictionary, sincerity is only evident when someone truly acts it out and means it. Its not a character in Shakespeare's play.

In essence, I'm now like a balloon filling up bigger and bigger and waiting to burst someday.On that day I burst, I don't think your puppet will act out the whole puppet show for you. Oh someday, but I'm still trying to be sober.

P.S: Miss M, I'm not kiasu.I read my stuff.The term you guys is not directed at a specific person or groups, so please do not be offended.Yes, this is an angry post and sorry for that.This is a short poem i spontaneously thought.Enjoy

for you are cold,

You silenced all my tears,

You shadowed all my fears.

for you are dark,

I see the true colors of others,

I realise the true intention of fakers.

Love,

for you are mighty,

But where were you when I need you most,

You hid,

Beneath....

Let us go back a little to physics 101, yeah..rewind back time a little. If you faithful and new blog readers of mine still remember the formula F=kx. Yes that formula, where load is placed on a spring, the spring will lengthen or extend to a certain point. haha..i bet you guys will screw me when you see me, what physics lesson in a blog? My point here is this, I'm experiencing that condition in my phase of my life now. As it is, we humans are always striving to do our best and give our best in whatever we do.Well, i'm not sure if it applies to all but its ringing a bell in my own head. But when we do too much and the word i wish to stress here is 'too much', this strive for excellence becomes a burden and a hindrance. When we as an individual stretch ourselves so much until it is beyond our original limit, a scenario or a psychological condition called the 'breaking point' would appear.

I sometimes wonder, at times when someone else is having problems, I go all out to help that someone.But when I have the problem, the equation goes the other way.HELP+SINCERITY doesnt equal to True Friendship.I am so exhausted and deprived of true attention from the people i care. Why? Why would I be a puppet playing the role in other people's lives while they take advantage of me. Look here, I'm not Pinnochio and you guys ain't Gepetto.Get your thoughts straight.For one, when I am having my problems or facing my darkest fears, you guys cut away the strings attached to me and just leave.

Answer me now, why is it that you guys always come to me when you have problems? Is it because I will do whatever it takes to solve and help, or because I am just a puppet in your life for you guys to pull the string and make me walk your way? I don't want be no faker. I would not want to fake my emotions. Whenever you guys have your problems, it comes crashing down on me, but I still smile and then help you guys go the other way around.Why? Why go through all that fuss? This is because I believe(oh sorry), I THOUGHT you guys would do the same when I have my own problems. How stupid of me, karma never comes, retribution will only come.

Believe it or not, I stretch my boundaries for you guys.I can surely say, when I have the problem, you guys would just listen to me and then change the topic. Sincerity is not just a word in the dictionary, sincerity is only evident when someone truly acts it out and means it. Its not a character in Shakespeare's play.

In essence, I'm now like a balloon filling up bigger and bigger and waiting to burst someday.On that day I burst, I don't think your puppet will act out the whole puppet show for you. Oh someday, but I'm still trying to be sober.

P.S: Miss M, I'm not kiasu.I read my stuff.The term you guys is not directed at a specific person or groups, so please do not be offended.Yes, this is an angry post and sorry for that.This is a short poem i spontaneously thought.Enjoy

for you are cold,

You silenced all my tears,

You shadowed all my fears.

for you are dark,

I see the true colors of others,

I realise the true intention of fakers.

Love,

for you are mighty,

But where were you when I need you most,

You hid,

Beneath....